Hello everyone,
I'm Rebecca, aged 30, have been diagnosed with PCOS in the last six months. I had adult acne on the lower right side of my jaw for many years, and have always been slightly darker haired than most women I suppose, but it's never really been an issue for me, I tend to just get on with that. However, since my diagnosis I feel that the hair on my face, and around my chest/bottom, has started to darken fairly significantly in my opinion. I also think my hair is starting to fall out, but again, I've been prone to shedding my whole life and up until now it's never been an issue. Even though my doctor suspects I've had PCOS for years and she said it would be unlikely that hair loss would be a problem since I've gone this long without any problems. However, now it feels like it's happening a lot more than it used to and I'm convinced that my hair has felt 'different' over the last few weeks/months.
It only feels that much worse to me because I also live with depression, anxiety and body dysmorphia (BDD). I am absolutely terrified about losing my hair and right now it's all I can think about. I genuinely feel like my life is going to be over if I lose my hair - I've dealt with acne and body hair for such a long time I've learned to cope with them (unless the acne flair ups are particularly bad), probably because I feel they are easier for me to hide.
I genuinely feel like nobody is ever going to love me because of the outward symptoms of PCOS, even though my friends and family tell me they are 'unnoticeable' but, of course, my anxiety and BDD never allow me to believe that and sometimes they're probably just saying that. I don't want to bother my family and friends with my worries, because they often have to deal with the rest of my GAD, so any support would really be appreciated, especially if anyone else has the same problems as me combined with the PCOS. Sorry for the long post!
I hope everyone has a lovely evening.
Rebecca x