Just needing to vent this somewhere and hope you lovely ladies will understand. This year I've had 2 mc. 1st May & 2nd Oct. I'm absolutely dreading Xmas I should of had a baby but again I've just got this emptiness and what with family gatherings and everyone showing off their new babies, me and dh feel like a spare part with nothing in common to talk about with others, they are all going be cooing over the babies. Most people on here will understand that although we are happy for all the new mothers, it doesn't stop it hurting like hell. Yes I'm jealous and want that sort of attention for us too. I know it sounds selfish and pretty awful but I can't help it. We're not bad people why can't we just have a bit of luck and feel normal and fit into the family situation instead of feeling like outsiders...I'm trying to be positive and wish next year will be our year but I'm 39 & dh is 45 so reality is kicking in.
Any advice would be gratefully received x