Hi, I was on the same post as you before all this and mine happened 14/10 this was my 2nd mc this year the first in May. We have been ttc for 15yrs with not even a sniff of ov in all that time. I lost 2st which seems to have started the ball rolling. All natural except met. So when we got the bfp we was understandably over the moon, this was short lived and probably in hind sight we shouldn't have got so excited too early but it's hard not to. On the day we had the scan I was almost expecting bad news but hoped just one time we would have a bit of luck. When we got home we was just numb, it was like our world had stopped and everything was eerily silent just like when you're told someone has died. All the plans and names we had chosen just seemed like a dream and of course every advert is babies, everywhere you go is babies we couldn't escape from it being shoved down our throats.
2nd time wasn't so bad, that sounds awful but now I knew what to expect and because this one wasn't as far along it was just an extreme af.
All I can say is it does get easier and you get back on the horse. You can't change things that have happened and know that next time it might just stick. I found keeping away from others with babies just for a while let's you heal for a little bit.
I've also seen a new GP whose been thro ivf so she is more clued up and is investigating the recurring mc's which has given me new hope as 20/11/13 would have been my EDD it's giving me something to focus on.
I didn't cry for ages then it hit me in bed one night. You have to grieve, it hurts but hug each other and try again.
It does get easier, I promise xxx