by Meringoo » Thu Jan 08, 2015 9:10 pm
Hey,
First of all, don't worry about these things. I am kind of in the same boat really. And i have days/weeks/months where i feel utterly hopeless, and then i get a fresh new perspective on things. I remember how f***ing awesome it is to be my own person. Especially when certain men I meet turn out to be lame/controlling or just plain wrong. I think that because we have a condition where there is an emphasis on our age due to hormones, timing of babies (or desperately TTC), doctors telling us to "hurry up" with these things...we feel like it's all a race. I know I have done in the past. I stayed in a terrible relationship partly because I got diagnosed with endometriosis and then my gynaecologist said "you need to have a baby before you're 30, else you'll find it very difficult to conceive after that age", so all I thought was that I had one option. It made me so unhappy. I'm nearly 30. Well, soon to be 29, and yes this slightly bothers me, but I have replaced the rubbish in my life with things that make me happy and make me feel like myself. I'm putting myself more, and it feels so good!
Have you tried doing brand new things to put you in situations where you might meet somebody decent? Online dating, going out with female friends to bars where you might meet a guy, getting involved in exciting as a hobby?