Post traumatic stress disorder...
I'm worried that I have got PTSD as I'm finding it hard to cope with the death of my nan two years ago around my 18th birthday. and now my grandad is dying from dementia and pneumonia after refusing to eat. I know its a sign of his body shutting down
Its also going to be near my 20th birthday this year if he dies very soon
Im struggling to deal with the near death of him too now.
I know me saying that I might have PTSD may sound a little extreme, as most people have PTSD from bad army events etc. But you can get PTSD from losing a loved one and also the reoccurring nightmares link with PTSD.
Anyway, going back to the PTSD... around my nan's cremation two years ago I was having horrible recurring nightmares of the event (nightmares of the cremation over and over). It would be the same nightmare of the cremation for a while. I still have these dreams on and off and nightmares of being back at my nan's house talking or hugging her etc. Also, I sometimes end up crying in the nightmares and wake myself up. I know it sounds kind of crazy, its so difficult to explain. I miss my nan terribly as I was very close to my grandparents, they had a lot to do with my while I was younger too. I talk to my mum about my horrible dreams, as they were my mums parents. She is coping with it fine, may still upset her obviously but not effecting her the way it effects me. She understands that I was very close to them.
I went to the doctors to try and talk about it the other day, but he kind of brushed it off as if it was just a 'childish nightmare' and 'death happens' sort of thing. I really don't see it like that, as I've had these horrible thoughts and dreams for over 2 years now since she passed away.
Around two years ago I got put on Prozac antidepressants because I got really depressed when she died. Just thought I'd add that in somewhere...
My mum thinks I should get referred and talk to someone about this all, as it is having an impact on my life. It gets me very down that day after dreaming such horrible things.
This post is a bit of a jumble really, sorry if it sounds hard to understand or make sense of. I have written a post before about my reoccurring dreams about my nan.viewtopic.php?f=27&t=32790
I just wish I knew why I was having these thoughts and bad dreams.
Thank you for any replies! Much appreciated.