Hi all,
I stopped taking Citalopram 3 days ago. All seemed well until tonight.
I've been home alone all day as I worked from home, when my OH got home I was really happy to see him had cooked him dinner and we planned to watch a film. I was trying to be affectionate but he wasn't in the mood. Out of nowhere came the tears, that sent me into a pit of despair that everything was wrong in my life; my job, my relationship, me. I felt as though it's all because I stopped taking medication and maybe I wasn't ready, maybe I will never be ready. Then I felt as though I was the problem that this version of me is the real version and the "happy" version is just a fake I can be when I'm on anti-depressants.
I pulled myself together, took my mind off things by getting my stuff ready for tomorrow. I feel a lot better now but I can't help but feel this is a spiral of emotion I will have to deal with my whole life. I have had a few outbursts while on the medication but I didn't spiral into this negative mindset quite in the same way so it feels as though it is connected.
I would appreciate if anyone else has any stories about taking anti-depressants and what happened when they stopped taking them.
Thanks,
Jack.xx