by jazzy » Sun Aug 14, 2011 8:27 pm
Hi Girls!
Thank you very much for your reassurance. I am going to Derby Uni so probably around/near your way Lucinda?! I am just very nervous I think... at my college where I've just spent my gap year to increase my arts experience, I have only been around 30 disabled students, 12 of us in semi-independent flats, though we had specific hours of PA support. That coupled with the rigid routine of the 'learning programme' during the week - I felt like my so called independence was forever being strangled because I needed help with all my personal care (getting up, toilet, bed etc), support making lunch/dinner etc. It felt like a constant invasion of my space even though it was necessary because I need the physical help. I felt uncomfortable socialising because it was always with and around the same people and I got very bored most of the time. I'm the sort of person that likes things moving/buzzing and changes, and I can recognise now that I was getting nowhere near enough of that at college... staff would make excuses or blame short staffing loads to compensate for not taking me or a group out at weekends. There wasn't enough clubs to occupy us and I often felt like an outcast, the girl who everyone ignored as much as possible because she was a bitch!! Argh... i'm being self destructive again aren't I??? I surely hope my uni days are much better... am joining a week before the main students... will be joining freshers too so hopefully will enjoy myself... it's all about the hope with me!!! xxx i'm not always very sure of myself xxx
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